A Journey Within

Conciousness came into existence and first  emotion witnessed was of fear of loosing existence.This fear also referred as primal fear.And this sense of existing as an entity is ego. Conciousnes took simplest physical form to be able to decrease this fear.  Now fear goes away in two manner either you understand your surrounding so that you are familiar with what is threatning and what not.But, this requires thought proces and thus a developed brain. But this is possible only in highly evolved species . There is another way to tackle fear.Generate familiar things with which you will comfortable,less threatened and stronger.Thus, simplest of organism started to multiply.This tendency to generate offsprings is termed as sex drive.But it seems that it's an intermediate form that ego drive have adopted to ensure its existence. You will find that lower organisms reproduce most and produces lots of offsprings at....once. But as brain develops and organism become intelligent it reproduce

We have reached a point where mind has hardly time to contemplate and go within.Materialistic possesions has greatly hampered spritual attainment.People posseses money and comfort but greatly devoid of internal bliss. People consider progress in terms of materialistic development.But, I feel civilization progress in real terms on spiritual front.Civilization should get wiser and not only richer.But, materialistic possesions and wisdom can't go side by side.civilization is no more progressing in real sense but its moving towards its extinction.Civilization of ours had reached zenith of its progress many centuries back.Now, its witnessing breaking of every fabric that was built over many centuries.We are not progressing.We are witnessing downfall of civilization.Technological developments offers some hope.But, we have degraded much at personal levels into fragile beings.

Actually, it's difficult for me to live without goals in life.Once i am goaless in life, i find myself in hell.without confidence and insecure. My mind is rarely in my control. I see myself as a dry fallen leaf which is on the mercy of wind of thoughts. It is goal which enable me to develop some control in me. I don't like company of people and i often feel urge to run away from parties.I like helping people. My heart cry when I see people suffering. But i observe people who are not sensitive enough and don't care about others are more happy.I don't like people in general.I like goals.My worst fear is state of goallessness After UPSC exam is over what could be my next goal?Serving as IAS officer (if i become) can be a goal in itself.Will it be enough to keep my soul and mind at a place.? I want to be a novelist because of this fear.Goal to complete a novel which may become bestseller might be as powerful as clearing civil services.I feel like a dead person without goa

I believe every individual must start to think about themselves.you may call it selfishness.But, i feel this is the way society can do better and become conducive for peaceful co-existence. All you have to think about yourself.Think about your happiness.Think about the problems at both spiritual and material levels which are creating the discomfort in life.Many might say selfishness may lead to progress of a being at the cost of some other.Weaker may suffer.Men may turn into parasites.But, this is irrational apprehensions which hold no ground.If you do harm to others, don't you think guilt may disturb your mind.It will prevent you to enjoy your life.Unless one is abnormal, he surely suffers from guilt.Thus there is a natural check and balance for a selfish being from becoming harmful to others. They may turn compassionate and helpful as it provides more satisfaction.Once a person experience the satisfaction of soul brought to you by giving and helping people, you will always be inc